Thursday, December 08, 2005
I request for a chance to be selfish for one day and I got it. After that, i feel that i'm totally a cow. Human's never satisfied with wat he has rite? so do I. I am so super sensitive these days. Every single lil thing annoys me so much;
The weather drives me crazy. It's freezin here n i HAVE to put on lots of clothes on me ... feel like a fat polar bear. Tat's the reason i hate winter, n oso i gotta change all my make up stuffs refer to the bloody weather.
Another thing tat bugs me much is ... for me, my notebook is quite private thing, especially my hard disk external. Tat's why I separate my private things into the HD n hardly connect to it unless i need sum files. Well... a best fren of mine doesnt quite understand tat while she's using my notebook and I was not around. I knew bout tis coz she forgot switched off my HD external n I kinda shocked coz she dares to do tat without a proper permission. Yes, i did not tell her bout tat ... but for an ethic it's still not proper rite? Oki... tis is only a lil matter but bugs me so much. I mean, I'm kinda fair n open about myself, yet as a normal person, it's normal to have sum secret too n not gonna let anybody interfere with my business.
I feel like a single rite now. I think io's in Indo a bit longer than i expect. I thought i could handle it but in these tough days, everythin quite seems completely like shit!
The noise around my neighbour, the laundry which is so far away from where i live, my messy hair, my mish mash room, my lost spirit, anthin tat bugs me when i start to create a new fs' skin, unfinished novel, a dirty beggar who sat near to me when i was in the bus, the fucking weather, the bloody rain n so on.
I realized i cannot blame on anybody esp io. I should know, that if i'm not happy, it's up to me to do sumthin bout it.
Ps: anybody yg mo cari gara2 ... step off!!!!
between Germany & Taiwan : 5:43 AM
